Just binged like a thousand calories. Now I feel so fat. So huge and so horrible.
I’m such a fucking failure
They say it’s not about weight. And then weigh you.
They say it’s about needing control. And then take the control away from you.
They say it’s not about calories. And then tell you you’ve eaten too many or not enough.
They say it’s possible to recover. And then they tell you that you have a 50/50 chance of relapse.
They say it’s a state of mind. And then they tell you that you don’t meet the physical criteria.
❝ For everything that’s wrong with life, looks in the mirror to criticize, She’d rather be beautiful than alive.
— Faces without Names—Deadly Beauty
❝ Anorexics are the best liars in the world. You do anything to keep control. You place people into separate categories, those you trust, those you don’t, those you can confide in and those whom you lie to. But of course the reality is that underneath it all, you are lying to yourself all the time.
— The Invisible Girl, Peter Barham (via skirtingtheline)
(Source: mylifewithanorexia)
❝ [Eating disorders] are a wonderful tool for helping you reject others before they can reject you. Example: You’re at a party. The popular girls are there. You know you can never be as cool as they are, but when one of the pops a potato chip into her mouth or chooses real Coke over Diet, for that moment you are better
— Stacy Pershall
